Bellaland

Bellaland
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First let me say thanks for all your wonderful comments and well wishes, it means a great deal to us and our little Bella.

We’ve pretty much have made up our minds, after much talking, researching and listening we know where we are leaning. I think what it all comes down to is quality over quantity. In other words, we would would rather have her happy and with us for a shorter period of time than here for longer, miserable and feeling ill. We spoke with another doctor (who we respect a great deal, and has a long history with Bella’s health) to get a second opinion and he agrees that the amikacin is a severe drug and that her condition is probably more anatomical/physiological, meaning the infection would more than likely come back no matter how effective this or any drug is in getting rid of it. He gave us a few tips that might help deal with the bacteria, but he felt that maintaining her current treatment was a good course of action for now. Our goal is to keep her comfortable, happy and feeling like herself for as long as we can maintain it. Certainly we would not deny her any treatments that would make a difference for her but for now she’s doing really well and this drug would only put her through hell. We are just so relieved to hear that we were not being unreasonable and that we do have realistic expectations. The problem with so many doctors is that their goal is life, not quality of life and the only measure for what we would do for B is what we would do for ourselves. We would rather have her for one good month, than 6 months of her feeling miserable. It’s not fair to ask that of our pets even though we have that ability. For now, all is good in Bella Land, she’s moving around strong, enjoying omega 3 scrambled eggs in the AM and seems to be maintaining her weight very well. She even is running like bambi in the backyard, it’s so cute.

We’ll take anything we can get for now and see what tomorrow brings. As with everything, you just have to take it one day at a time and try to make the best decisions you can. I think the hardest thing about having a pet is loving them and i mean really loving them – the puptalk, petting stuff is the easy part, it’s the hard decisions, the trying to do right by their faith & love in you. They can’t always speak for themselves and that’s what’s so hard, you have to know them so well so that you can really be their voice and do right by them. As much as they give us and they always give 100%, we have to give that back a hundred times over, especially through the hard times.

Bambi in Bellaland, she is our heart, our everything…